Today is my brother’s birthday. He passed away in 2011. Our little one will not know her uncle. It is a strange sad feeling. My brother’s time in life was filled with moments of exceptional beauty and also marked with moments of incredible humility. I will tell our daughter when she is young that her…

I’ve been tasked to count the number of kicks this baby does everyday. I learned a week after I was given this assignment that I should do this after dinner and that I should be concerned if the baby does not kick at least 10 times within a period of 2 hours. Before this assignment,…

I’ve mulled a lot about work. W would probably call it by a different name, perhaps complaints. ha What I’ve concluded today is that each person is motivated by completely different objectives. Some are motivated by forward thinking – wanting to take the company to the next level, some are motivated purely by financial goals,…

I told W the other day – it’s strange to think that this girl will never know us the way we are now. How we’re experiencing this pregnancy and how our dynamics were prior to her arrival. W and I have been for about 15 years now. We first met when we were both 21,…

This girl is really active. Squirming around and actually making my belly visibly shake. It is a bizarre feeling. And the first time I felt her move viscerally, and I mean that in the literal and physical way, the feeling was so creepy! I had been readying myself for sleep and was lying on my…

Several weeks ago I had a ultrasound appointment. The appointment was pretty fascinating – we saw the baby in her non-squidlike form for the first time. And she was rolling around and moving so much! This came at quite a shock to both W and I as we both could barely feel her move at…

Yep, she’s still in my uterus. And no, I’m still not used to her being there. I’m on week 24 this weekend and this experience remains a totally surreal. However, my condition is finally making its way to my dreams! In fact, I had a gross nightmare last night. In my dream, a man –…

Whenever I start a post, the feeling of self-consciousness overtakes me. And then I find myself having trouble touching the keyboard. My hands just hover. I remember this feeling – when I was young and handwriting a journal entry; I felt this same feeling of exposure. It’s absolutely true that in my case that starting…

It’s nearly needless to say that I’m terrible at journaling. I say it now and again because I find it awkward to simply leap into a new post. The biggest change in my life recently is that W and I are expecting a little one one September. Expecting… pregnant… with child… And with 3 and…

ahhhhh, it’s nearly the holidays again. looking forward to lights on houses and days off from work!