Every year I think the same thoughts – I’m getting older… my god, I’m still the same person… what improvements I’d like to make… sigh, how memories become distant… brief thoughts of both the regrets and joys in life.. and of course, wondering how my younger self would judge the person I am today.
When I was a kid, I used to think… I want to die at the height of living; I didn’t ever want to grow old! I thought… ending life at 30 would be ideal because then I won’t have to get married, have kids, experience physical deterioration, etc. Why would I ever want to go through those phases? While I want to say that it’s not easy getting older, I’m still here because it is worth surviving. 🙂
This year I want want to make sure that I engage in life more actively; I want to stop the auto-pilot mode that I’ve been locked into and pause to smell the roses, so to speak.
Last year (for me) was about cutting out drunken hazes and black-outs – those experiences of years dedicated to hedonism. This conversion led to a different kind of mundane experience: it’s been work, sleep, workout, and eat… day-in and day-out. Attempts at efficiency has been productive in that it provided me a model for stability, health, and a sense of wakefulness. 🙂 This year, I’m going to try to be the person I’ve always wanted to be and… in many ways, who I used to be. In five words: reader, action, giver, happy, listener.
Reader: I have a list that I’m thrilled to get into… I want inspiration through art.
Action: Do it – book trips, see people, call people, feel everything including work!
Giver: Give more time, money, and energy.
Happy: Stop complaining. Stop contributing to an unhappy world.
Listening: Show I care because I do and I want people to know it.
Enjoy life! 🙂 Celebrate, indulge, love, be good to yourself and to others. Regain a focus on the good.
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